patrikyle

So I know its been a while since i posted anything. This would be because I have been really busy this summer. I don't know where the time went. This summer just flew by. I move into my dorm room in less than a week and I am both really excited and really nervous about it. With that being said, I'm thinking about documenting my first year of college through videos and journals on buzznet. So let me know if you guys would be interested in seeing that by responding in comments below. 

 

All that aside, I'm having a somewhat interesting camping trip with one of my friends Andi. Its proven itself to be very interesting so far. We've had a bedside assailant ( bobby cresta) and a " axe murder" try to combat us already. The lake here is really nice but we've only been here for a few days and already we don't know what to do with ourselves. Also the locals tend to stare at me when I go in the general store. I guess green hair is unwelcome here.

I'm having a hard time grasping the fact that I need to grow up. I'm about to turn 18 which makes me a legal adult. I found out today that I'm going to have to take out loans to pay for college whereas before my parents assured me they could pay for it and I could worry about paying them back after I graduated. I can't believe this is really happening. I'm going to graduate from highschool and then my life begins. I'm going to have to make smart decisions and really try hard. I'm very goal orriented so I see myself doing well at college but I just can't wrap my mind around how old I'm getting. I still feel like a kid. Maybe I still am?

 

with that being said I'm very excited for a photoshoot I'm having soonish with photographer Tucker Leary . It's going to be our own personal take on the tea party scene in alice in wonderland. I'm going to be the mad hatter! Can't wait :D

 

 

So my trip to virginia beach has actually been going pretty good!

Today we went to the aquarium and for the most part it was pretty sick!

pictures below

 

 

Imax baby! hahahahah

 

 

in a shark!? whattttttt1!?

 

 awwwww

 

 

we loved that turlte and it loved us!!!

 

 

 

 

so yup, aquariums are cool, how is everyones week going?

I'm beginning to realize just how many people are forced to grow up too fast. It truly is sad. Some of my friends I feel are almost too responsible. People are always talking about how people need to grow up and I think the opposite is true. Some of the things my 17 year old friends worry about is just so ridiculous. I can't even fathom worrying about these things at such a young age. You are only going to have this period of youth once. I just wish people appreciated life for what it is and maybe not worry so much about material things? if that makes sense. I'm not sure I'm really getting my point across.

Here is my best attempt at summarizing my insane scrambled thoughts.

 

enjoy being a kid while you can! ok!

 

 

youth truly is fading

 

I drove all the way from maine to virginia beach

 

it took 17 hours!

SEVENTEEN

haha

anyways

it was well worth it Ive got some interesting pictures I will upload in my next entry

 

the house we are staying in is HUGE!!! like GIANT!!!

 

and we drove through baltimore on our way here and it was so gorgeous I want to live there

 

 

 

 

how was everyones weekend!? :D

I'm driving a billion hours to virginia beach starting monday morning at 2 a.m

 

I'm going to try to take a bunch of pictures and stuff while I'm down there

 

My twitter will still be updated thanks to my new phone with unlimited internet! :D  (www.twitter.com/patrikyle)

 

so everyone who actually follows what I do can be updated!

 

my friend nikole made me this after she saw my apples and oranges picture, isn't it sick!?

 

regret? is that what I'm feeling?
I don't think it is
If it was regret wouldn't I feel bad?
I don't.
Regret? the word continues to flow through my head.
Uninterrupted by anything else , here it is just me and my thoughts.
Leading me back to my initial worry.
Is this regret?

 

I need to

get a car
go to college
get a job that does not totally suck
get an apartment
be happy

its only 5 things

when I look at it written down like this it doesn't seem so bad

But in reality there are so many little things contributing to those 5 things that just stress me out so much!

I graduate from highschool this year which means I have to go to college and then its the real world i'm dealing with after that.
It is terrifying in a way.

When I was younger I remember being scared about this happening but I always told myself I would be older and more knowledgable by then but it doesn't feel that way to me, I feel like i'm just kind of getting thrown out there

is this how everyone feels?

please share your thoughts

also how was everyones weekend? I was mega sick so legitamatley nothing happened for me to talk about it, besides leveling a night elf druid to 75 wich is a story for another time.

I lose my ipod litterally every 5 seconds

its awful


does anyone else have this issue?


I kind of wish it wasn't so tiny and portable so I could locate it easlier, like how often do you lose your laptop?
probably a lot less than you lose your ipod

My weekend was failry un-eventful
I attempted taking some pictures saturday because it was wicked nice out! yet again :D
but sadly I left my memory card at home :(

Regardless

I went to my friends house and I had never been there before.

it was litterally 3 floors and probably like half a football field long.

It was insane. There was like 10 of us there , so of course we started a hide and seek game.

And me and 2 other friends hid in a closet similar to the 1 in the grudge, it was terrifying .




Things in my life have been making me realize just how much competition is a part of our everyday life. We may not even realize it but were all in competition with each other somehow if you really think about it. Your in a competition to get a job, your in a competition to be the best at your job. School itself is totally competitive. Making friends , having friends, keeping friends, all competitive to some degree. It makes me wonder if there is anything thats really simple enough to just relax and not have to worry about and we can say that we don't care about this or that, but in reality are we just losing the competition when we say that? Are we just giving up?





with all of this being said/considered, how was everyones weekend? :D

Winter is almost over! :D It was like 60 degrees out on saturday here in maine and it was beutiful. So me and some friends decided to go to the beach

Idk I might just be wierd but i think the beach looks so pretty when its overcast , I especillay love the beach we went to it had cool forts.









I love the beaches in maine at certain seasons of the year, if you ever get a chance to visit them you should, i'm really lucky to live so close to them.







how was everyone elses weekend! :D let me know

Today wasn't totally bad, I woke up slightly late but whatever. Half of the things I thought I had to turn in at school got there due dates pushed farther which was rad. I ACTUALLY used my gym membership today which was awesome because I need to lose winter weight..... whatever the fuck that is hahaha.

..... I was just kidding I know what winter weight is .

anyways

so because I took a nap instead of eating lunch I was really hungry so I went to fresh city









but instead of going with these old guys I dont know , I went with some of my friends



and then





after spending a couple hours on youtube I cant tell whether or not Katy Perry is a bitch.
and I'm going to start doing a new thing in my posts for fun called





what made me say " what the fuck"

Winning thing below














ok so i was going to post this really creepy chris crocker video but I'm failing to do that








so i guess just chris crocker in general made me say WTF today



and now I'm just in time to catch the late real world


I wonder what kind of  escipades  the  obviously a tranny because I have huge shoulders          will get into.
At least she keeps the show interesting








you guys stay classy ;D

I decided to start posting on here , I hope people actually read this.
I have a lot of psychology homework I have to get done by tommorow which is a pain.
But I enjoy the class for the most part. I'm getting really annoyed with highschool though. Like what is so important about
stupid things like yearbook pages or who you go to prom with. People make such a big deal out of those things .
I have friends come up to me all worried about both and I just tell them " things are only important if you make them important" and thats true. For example most people might find the super bowl important. I don't , I could never watch another superbowl ever and it wouldn't matter to me. Just like who you go to prom with and what your yearbook page looks like dont have to be that important either. I mean realisticly everyone is going to graduate and noone is going to care who you went to prom with or what your yearbook page looked like. On a sidenote, yearbooks are so overated anyways. Its not like your actually looking back on what highschool is like but more of what highschool is " supposed " to be like, you know?
idk

heres an old picture of me